Strike that. It has now been 32 days. I started to write this and just couldn't.
I don't know what to say. I have not been able to run. I tried to cycle and that didn't work. I was told not to try to swim.
I have been doing a lot of sit-ups and weight work with the upper body. I have a fairly decent core. I am not totally ripped with abs, but there is strength there. That, to me, is more important. My arms are looking pretty good too. I have been doing a bunch of reps with light weights. I know it isn't much, but I am just starting. Last night I actually did some reps with a heavier weight! PROGRESS! I just can't wait to get clearance to do something substantial with my legs again.
I really have been good about this. For the first week, I used my crutches all the time. For the second week, I used at least one crutch and if I didn't use either, I at least had them with me. This third week, I haven't had them with me. I have even walked around my house barefoot. I'm not sure the doc will be happy with that, but my foot felt really stiff and it felt better after walking a bit.
Now, I'm not talking about pacing back and forth. Just walking from living room to bedroom and couple of times in a day. Nothing much. I always put the boot back on when I was planning to stand for longer periods or walk more. I am hoping for good news Friday, when I go back to see Dr. Biggs. I don't know if he will take x-rays again or not, but I'm ready to get back into action. If only just for a spin class...
Part of my problem is that I grew accustomed to eating a certain amount of food in a day and can no longer do that due to the decrease in activity. I have been putting on weight. Clothes are fitting tight. I have worked very hard to get where I am and am feeling a bit depressed that this is happening. I know that I have to control my eating. That has always been hard for me. It is one reason I blew up to 211 pounds in the first place. I worked HARD to get down to 150, and for a while I was lower than that (my lowest was 147). I am now slowly creeping higher again, and it is tearing me up! It is going to be a lifelong battle for me, I am sure.
I am trying to find a workout program that I can start once I get the OK. I really liked the structure of the BTG training and am looking for something I can chart and see what's next. I may end up throwing something together for myself, but I worry about hurting myself with something like that. I know me! What I am looking for is a good strength program to incorporate into running, cycling and swimming (once I learn to do that).
Ideally, I want to run 3-4 days, bike 2-3 days, and swim 2-3 days, with strength training mixed in 3-4 days as well. All of that with Fridays off! Saturday will be the Long Run day, most likely.
I never thought I would miss exercising as much as I do. Just 2 years ago, those words would never have pooped into my head. Now... Well, a pic I found says it best : "I didn't change, I just found myself". I have this picture to keep reminding me of how far I have come, and where I have yet to go!
I will do my best to post again after I see the Doc Friday. Praying for good news!
There are a few other positives to note here. I got to meet one of my heroes: Jackie Joyner-Kersee!!!


~Happy Running!
(you better believe I will be happy to get back to running)
Thanks for taking the time and emotional energy to write out what you've been thinking while in recovery. Sending you all clear vibes at Dr Biggs office!!
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